this is how i started my morning.
no soft or subtle dawn, birds chirping. more like almost out of cigarettes, dead for cash, popping pills followed by stale drinks,

alk 3 - jaked on green beers
it's been a long time since I've been close to you
it's been a long time since I've been sad
it's been awhile since I've really spent time with you,
wish I could take back the times that I had.
the only thing that you ever really did for me
is make me oh so miserable
and the hope that I never see your face again
is anything but questionable

I hope this is goodbye

there was a time when I thought you were a friend to me
I think those times I was probably just drunk
and if they offered a test about being a good friend,
I'd put money down that you'd surely flunk
the only thing that you ever really took from me
were my records to sell them for dope
now all I have left is this heart in my chest,
and my happiness helping me cope

I hope this is goodbye

it's been a long time since I've been close to you
it's been a long time since I've been sad
it's been awhile since I've really spent time with you,
wish I could take back the times that I had.
the only thing that you ever really did for me
is make me oh so miserable
and the hope that I never see your face again
is anything but questionable
there was a time when I thought you were a friend to me
I think those times I was probably just drunk
and if they offered a test about being a good friend,
I'd put money down that you'd surely flunk
the only thing that you ever really took from me
were my records to sell them for dope
now all I have left is this heart in my chest,
your dishonesty helping me cope

I hope this is goodbye

' in the long run, you're only gonna end up feeling that inner vacancy, the one where you wish you couldve really loved someone, and had them love you back.'
- EngimaCat

goddamn that was beautiful.

std - hold
Oh well, you've got me under your spell and I don't think that I'm kidding around.
I don't think I can forget you now. I once sat up on my roof and examined the planning of my town.
I saw the structured grid and pavement cutting through grass and I remembered the cold of winter running up the legs of my pants.
I picked the nicest lawn and imagined the two of us rolling around down along the ground.
I saw myself touch your face and I noticed jets begin to race above our heads.
But I pinched my arm and remembered how much you hate me.
I remembered the fact that I can't see what you need and I'm too stupid to be aware of the beauty that you give this place and how shitty this town would seem without you in it.
When you aren't around I let the shades fall down to shut out all the sun's light and make myself feel all right.
What am I doing with my life?
Remember that the only things we need sometimes are chilly nights and warmer thighs, 'cause there's nothing like being held.