today i think will be the day ireally make a change. for what others see to be the worst, but i see as the best. my bet fikend had abandonded all hopes, my gf is turning to someone else and there's nothin i can do. i try to, but once again there's nothing i can do. might as well just walk away.

you bitch and moan as i smoke you cigs, but when mine are available you take them eiotuh a sound. what then? i have no home now. what do you do? charge me outrageous fees for cigs. i hate you, you fuck me over. luckliy i have this bottle to lift me to sleep at night, or in this case the afternoon.

i feel a tear that i cannot form.