Well I woke up today around 15 or 20 minutes ago with a nice throbbing heading and bleeding lungs. I think between 9 PM and 3 AM I drank more than enough scotch and beer. Trying to avoid this day I felt coming and avoid other feelings and whatnot. I wokeup today crying, which was nice to know that I can still cry. When I was younger, I believed that if you cried too much or too often you would eventually run out of tears. Sometimes I wish that was true and other times I'm glad it's not.

Since I have a pretty good sized headache I will go attempt to fall back asleep, and rest through this brain killer.

happy day... please let it be.
- jon -