np: further seems forever, thrice, alkaline trio, the get up kids and hot water music
today was intersting, after talking to missa for about an hour without an answer i left for work. this could be one year for us, but love failed me again. im asking god for a thrid sex because guys are evil and girls suck (with exceptions). got to work and after about 20 min Kati and company showed up. I felt like shit; dizzy, nautious and upset so i asked my boss if i could leave early and she sgreeed i looked like hell.
so then we grabbed ice cream and headed to the beach walking from the end of warner to the jetty in seal beach/surfside, stopping along the way to stare at seashells and other things we found interest in. both disgusted by the couples sitting in each tohers laps, making out jsut disgusting shit. then we saw this cute dorky kind of couple with their children walking along a small lake formed by flooding winter waters. we agreed that they were cute. someday i might find my dork, no more super nerds. but not for a good amount of time. i do not know how long i can go without believing that love is out there. is it? or have i lost all belief in love?
that sounds about right.
anyways, kati and i found: withered daisies, shells, and other radom stuff on our like 4 mile walk. it was great.
then we headed back to her place and hungout for a bit before jumping on razor scooters and tearing around the neighborhood. i compare many people i date to my friends that make me smile, makes for a good relationship meter. most girls i date are morons, so thankfully i have intelligent friends (lindsey, kati, rachel, kat) to speak with about things. Not waiting for the reply "i don't get it".
this is why im want to create a criteria for girls i date, im looking for marraige in the future. not asking you to give up your life, but to stand before our friends and declare our love for each other. sealed with a kiss. someday.
randomly - here's pretty things I'd love to get for xmas, wishlist of sorts... just cut and paste
clothes
http://www.punkoff.com/product.asp?3=254
http://www.punkoff.com/product.asp?3=269
http://www.punkoff.com/product.asp?3=8
music
http://www.punkoff.com/product.asp?0=200&1=215&3=11
http://www.punkoff.com/product.asp?0=200&1=215&3=10
my heart is drenched in wine but youll be on my mind forever