let's recap this weekend since i have not written in a few days....
Fri - stayed at home called eel, jenny and other fun kids i love and miss. i read a few books, ordered another book "on Love" by Alain De Botton, seems really awesome, finished off a bottle of cabernet savigne and a few drinks reading. didn't think about the effects of that until i tried to stand up. then i talked to danielle till i feel asleep at maybe 3 or 4 am. fun times.
Sat - wokeup around 5 or 6 at night, called back vanessa and got things in order for the night. after not seeing her for a year, it made me smile to see her smiling, that dorkish grin i can't resist. i met a bunch of awesome people including: Mary, Emily (Lyle), Sara, Dennis, Tom and many other people i can't remember. there was this guy with the initials GEA, i wrote his initials on my arm with a marker because he runs a web hosting service and i didn't want to forget. anywho, GEA was an asshpole period dot, he took home someone else's girl, so she kinda sucks too but they were drunk and there is no actual relationship, but it's the fact that dennis has loved this girl and wanted to have a shot. so everyone put down their guns including myself (shocked? fuck you.) i was suprisingly good, maybe because i didn't want to screw up things with vanessa, im not really ready, or that is just not comfortable anymore. either way, i am still unattached which is awesome, not having someone nagging at you, knit picking each of your features/characteristics. very nice.
not to mention i brought 2 bottles of wine with me so i could be a nice house guest. no one there really liekd wine except for me, not to mention other drinks i drowned away feelings in. but around 2 am after i waken up from my "nap" i began to talk to emily and mary. this is when the shit hit the fan i just let loose every bit of truth. alcohol really is a truth syrum, it's quite wonderful. not that i drink to get drunk but more so to relax and enjoy the exquisite taste of it. vodka and wine are my death drinks.
sweet sinful suicide note written in merlot. also i went o a high school party which sucked ass and reminded my of why i don't like a lot of hs kids. they are annoying, repetitive, uneducated, illiterate MORONS! never again.
mary, emaily and i talked for hours, they said to me as i was getting ready for bed,"you look like an abercrombie fitch model" i giggled at their lie and sat down on the couch. i ended up falling asleep there with Emily and Mary as Tom snored away behind us. altogether a great night and morning. bedtime was 9 Am.
Sun - wokeup around 3pm to the feleling of ohhhhhhh shit i work in an hour, so dennis and i booked it back to my hosue i got ready and left for work around 3:45, i had to be there at 4. work went well and i will be getting good overtime this week. thank god i need a good paycheck.
on a sad not i took a test i was recommended ot me by a few people who will remain nameless. maybe it is me afterall.
This questionnaire, though not a substitute for a diagnostic evaluation, is designed to help you recognize if symptoms sometimes attributed to bipolar disorder are present in your life or the life of a loved one.
The responses you have provided suggest that you may wish to seek a comprehensive evaluation by a physician.
Criteria for Mood Disorder Questionnaire:
Answering "Yes" to 7 or more of the events in question # 1, answering "Yes" to question # 2, and answering "Moderate Problem" or "Serious Problem" to question # 3 is considered a positive screen for bipolar disorder.
http://bipolarawareness.com - provided by WebMD.
now i will say good night.