Factors:
attempts to avoid my fear of failure
wondering if I will be without Alex
my jump into small-medium sized clients
constantly enveloped by alex but feeling the the solidarity of a gargoyle

Variables:
Financial roller coaster
Emotional tolls

In Summarization: "Lonely is the room, the bed is made, the open window lets the rain in burning in the corner is the only one who dreams he had you with him my body turns and yearns for a sleep that will never come"