this is to you the reader. do you think missa should try to stay with me? should we go our seperate ways? leave me a note with your advice, start out the first line with PBB and SN advice - (entry). I am pbb she is my sn. don't ask questions just serve a purpose, i will be posting this for the next few days.

deadly dreams. i wokeup screaming at 3 in the morning, tormented and anesthetized i passed out again. i know what a promise can do, i know what love can do. now i do both without you.

i love missa.

In Years To Come

I want to take the bullet,
the one aimed straight for your heart.
i want to meet the wolves halfway
and let them tear me apart,
but that's not the way they do it hear.
i want to lay on the tracks,
feel hot steel screaming at me.
expose the bones on my back,
let me show you what i mean.
yeah, it's a different kind of love.
i want to climb barbed wire fences
and warm our hands in blood.
and this is my gift is
asking you to fix my ruined hands.
and it's a gift that keeps on giving,
and right now it's all i have to give.
i want to write the perfect song,
and play it just for you,
while you are tangled in sleep.
i need you more than i'll ever know.
until i stop breathing,
my lungs will take you for granted